It’s almost 6 a.m. I’m running on zero hours of sleep.
Showering & getting ready for school.
Getting dismissed later on for my appt. with my psychiatrist.
I feel shaky & weak & I can’t tell if the sickening knot in my stomach is from my anxiety or the tea I drank last night.
This should be a fun-filled day.
The whole idea of being against society as a whole was nice at first I guess. But then I realized something. We are society, every single one of us. & until we realize this, nothing is going to change. It’s easy for us to sit back & complain about the rest of the world being fucked up, but what about us individually ? What have you done ? What have I done ? Unless you or I are actually treating others with kindness & respect, we have no right to talk at all. I see so many people on Facebook post these kinds of complaints every day when they are part of the problem. I am just so sick of it, really. Who do you think society is anyway ? The government/system alone ? Sure, they are a big part of it & the media plays a terrible role as well, but if we, as people, are able to see that the way “beauty” or ”success” is being portrayed is wrong or unfair, etc. why are we continuously living our lives as mindless, bigoted assholes, who are quicker to judge than they are to attempt to fix the problem ? We are the ones feeding this corruption with our ignorance. It’s something we should all really stop & think about.