To be honest I really dont understand whats going on most of the time. Its all about the moment and how you meet it, over time I feel I have changed and adapted to myself, to being me in this great world, but moment to moment you cant always feel comfortable, you dont get to know why things happen as they do until you look back in hindsight. Most mornings I wake up with nothing, but you learn to fully trust in the “universe”. It provides. Your stomach rumbles, sends out a vibration, and reality shifts to meet you. You have to do it yourself though, its an openness to the basics of life and fear and hope. There’s a little bit of the spiritual value i put into my personal way of manifesting, but base level, all you need to live each day is food and water, dumpsters are simple jackpots but always last resort, theres always closing shops with leftover food, free food happens a lot in cities, busking, in any form. The rest of lifes consisteny comes from your inner choices, visions and thoughts. Non resistwnce, life walks itself. pack a bag and go somewhere. the less attachment you have to a conceptual reality, the more you can carry within.